Mental Illness does not discriminate

After the events and numerous celebrity suicides, it's time for me to shed a little more light on mental illness! Let me start by saying mental illness does not discriminate who it effects! It affects every walk of life rich, poor, homeless, military, popular, unpopular every walk of life! Secondly I'd like to say I've seen numerous posts regarding the suicides of these celebrities where people are writing how cowardly they are, how selfish they are, how they aren't thinking about their family or literally the one that pisses me off the most "they made a permanent decision to take care of a temporary problem". The last statement pisses me off literally to my core because mental illness is in no way a temporary problem!!! Also just an FYI suicidal people are in fact thinking about their families when they are considering suicide, but the voices or demons as I call them in our brains are literally telling us how worthless we are, how our families would be better off without us being a burden on them, how much easier they would have it not having to love someone with mental illness and that eventually they will leave because who wants to love someone who is mentally ill! The day I was going to take my own life there wasn't a thought in my mind that didn't go to my kids, but my demons told me they deserved better.. they deserved a mom who was healthy and normal, they deserved to be loved in more ways than I ever could.. trust me when I say people who take their own lives are not cowards, they are not taking the easy way out... deciding to end your life is the hardest decision to ever make trust me I know as I decided that on that day in October I was going to take mine...
Just remember everyone is fighting demons you don't know about.. be there, listen and love them regardless! I am still fighting for my life everyday.. I may seem happy in pictures, but no-one has a clue what battle I am fighting in my head.. no-one knows that sometimes I go to sleep hoping to not wake up just so the nightmares, flashbacks, hurt and pain will end.. no-one knows how hard I fight to not self-harm to make the pain end or how hard I fight every day to keep myself alive for my family, for my kids and ultimately for myself.. so if you know someone is struggling or if you have a feeling someone you know is struggling just let them know your there for them, let them know you care, be there for them so they can be here tomorrow!
#suicideawareness #beheretomorrow #warrior #imstillfighting#illneverstopfighting #imworthit #mentalhealthawareness

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