Support is so important

A support system is important for anyone who struggles with a mental illness and especially those who struggle with suicidal thoughts. In order for us to live not only do we need to support ourselves in getting help, but we also need an amazing support system of family and friends to help us. Without a support system, we are doing all of this on our own and if we have attempted suicide before then without the love and support from other's it will most likely happen again. One thing that I would like to point out is that we do not only need a support system when we are in the hospital getting help or the weeks after we get home from the hospital, but we need daily support always. The thing I have realized from going into the hospital with attempted suicide is that everyone rallies around you when they find out your in a mental hospital and for the weeks following you coming home, but then a month later or two months later the support isn't as great as when you were admitted or first got home. It's like people think oh it's been months now and you haven't self-harmed (that they know of) or attempted suicide again so you must be fine now. When in reality we are not fine. We still need the same support that was being given to us in the hospital, we need to know that our support system is as strong months and years later as it was the day they found out we wanted to end our lives.

Our struggles happen daily even when out life seems like it's going great in our minds we are still struggling. If we don't have constant support from our loved ones the demons in our head will get the best of us and we won't know who to turn to. For me, I got a ton of support after people found out I was in the hospital, but now months later the support isn't as big and it honestly feels like people only cared when they thought I was going to end my life. I hope every day that I will never decide to try and take my own life again, but the reality is that I have suicidal thoughts daily I just don't act on them because I have reasons to live, but knowing that my support system isn't as strong as it once was makes it hard to reach out when I need help or am feeling unsafe when alone. The fact that I had a huge support system when I attempted suicide compared to now makes it feel like people only cared and wanted to help me when I was already at such a low that I almost took my life. 

We need our support systems at all times to help us heal, help us move on and help us continue to keep living every day. The more support we have on a daily basis the easier our days will struggle will be. If we know we have a strong support system then we will reach out more when we are in need of help. Just remember if you are someone's support system show them you are there not just when they are in the hospital getting help, but that you are always there to help them and hopefully keep them from needing to be hospitalized again. Be there for them day and night. Show them you support them in everything they do and are there cheering them on especially on their bad days. 

If you are feeling suicidal please reach out to whoever is your support system. If you don't have a support system reach out to me I will try to get you the help you are needing. Or reach out to the suicide hotline. Call 1-800-273-8255 or text HOME to 741741 or go to the nearest emergency room and they will get you the help you are needing. Never be ashamed to ask for help in any of these ways because getting help is the best decision you will ever make for yourself.

With Love,

Brittany


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