Britts Fight for Life (A mental health battle)

Anniversaries are amazing things for the most part. The anniversary of your wedding day, the anniversary of when you started dating the love of your life or the anniversary of the day you met that person, these are all moments that are amazing and anniversaries worth remembering. The memories are happy, lots of love, fun and worth remembering. Unfortunately though there are anniversaries in life that are hard to deal with. The day a loved one left this world, the day your divorce was final, the day your parents split up or the day you thought your life was going to end by suicide. In my world there are some amazing anniversaries that I love to remember, but there are also some very negative anniversaries that I wish my brain would just let me forget. It's hard to forget a moment when your life changed forever. When you are suicidal your mind goes into such a dark whole that it is hard to get out of it. It could take days, weeks and even months to fully feel like you have crawled...

Mental illness is never black and white.. no 2 people with mental illness are the same.. unfortunately for me I have numerous disorders that go into my mental illness... I have severe depression, generalized anxiety, mild PTSD and borderline personality.. for me this picture shows what mine looks like on a daily basis.. one second I feel like I have the whole world ahead of me and I can accomplish anything and yet within a couple minutes I feel as though my entire world is fa lling apart before my eyes.. this is depression, this is suicide, this is me.. people say all the time you seem happy, you don't seem like someone who would ever take their own life, but all of those statements are so wrong.. I am a person who is happy sometimes but in a split second can go from being happy and content in this world to literally going through every reason why this world would be better off without me.. in the end depression is different for everyone.. this is just a glimpse at what my mental ...

Life is a battle no matter where you come from. Everyone has demons and everyone has a past, but the question is how do you move on from a past that haunts you everyday? This has been something constantly on my mind lately as I try to move forward with my life and move past the hurt that has surrounded my life for years now. Moving on is never easy. It never becomes easier to tell someone who has hurt you that you forgive them for doing the awful things that they did and in all honesty sometimes you won't ever be able to forgive someone for the hurt they have caused you. For me it's not about forgiving those who have wronged me, it's about showing those people that I am strong enough to move on with my life and proving to them that no matter what they did to me I survived and I am in a better place than I have ever been. Forgiving someone isn't just about saying it out loud. I have a hard time forgiving those who have hurt me in the deepest ways and in all honesty I am...