Real talk
The thing that truly sucks about living with BPD is the constant feeling and fear of being a disappointment to those around you. No matter what you do you always feel like it will never be good enough for people to ever truly love you and while that is such a hard thing to overcome the hardest part in all of it is constantly feeling like a disappointment to yourself. Lately it seems like no matter what I do I just can't make myself happy or feel like I have accomplished anything. I get up, go to work everyday, go home, love my family and go work out, but somehow at the end of the day I always feel like I didn't do enough. I feel like I haven't lived up to the expectations of those around me and what they want me to be. It's like no matter how hard I try to make myself a better person I always feel like I failed. Last night after working out I lost my mind. I cried because I felt so disappointed in how I did and felt that I wasn't good enough for it anymore. L...