2020: Covid-19 Quarantine Day ????
I haven't written a blog in a while and writing this one hasn't been easy. I have started this blog at least twice and haven't gotten past the first couple sentences before deleting it. I just don't really know where to start or at some points what to even say anymore. Life is so crazy right now that I just don't know how to process anything. I went into 2020 believing that this was our year. This would be the year things finally fell into place for our little family and it would be the year that would remind me why I choose to live that day instead of going through with my plan, but this year has just gone to shit and has made me question everyday why I am even still alive at this point. Between my every day struggles and now the struggles of this illness going around I find it so hard to fight the demons inside of me. I am struggling and I feel like no one really knows how bad it's truly getting. I mean I am the best at hiding it all. Like damn I should ...