The year from hell
I feel like I haven't written a blog in forever and I don't really know where to start. I've been avoiding writing putting my words out there because I know they aren't easy words to read, but they also are words that really need to be said. This year has been all things wrong with the world. It's literally like the world has gone to hell and can't find it's way out. I've been trying to figure who I am since the last time I wrote on here, but I feel like I'm more lost now then I have ever been. The last couple years have been hard. I've been struggling so bad, but whats even worse is I have never been so low as I am right now except one time. One time have I ever gotten this low of a feeling in life and on that day I almost took my life. It's a scary place to be. To look in the mirror and wonder how long I will be able to keep holding on. To realize that I am falling apart at the seams and I have run out of ways to keep myself alive. I never...