5 years is a long time, but some scars never fully heal..
Hello readers it's been a long time.. It's October which of course means it's the month of my all time favorite holiday Halloween. My soul literally lives for this month of spookiness, scariness, and fun! The month where my soul thrives, where you can dress up for one day and be whoever you want without any cares in the world. A month that will forever be in my heart as one of the best 31 days of the year. The month that has turned out to be not only my absolute favorite month, but the worst month of my life. 5 years ago on October 26th I had the worst mental breakdown of my life. I broke down and decided that October 26, 2017 would be the last day I would be alive. I decided that on that day I would take my last breath, I would never see my kids again, never kiss them or feel the warmth of their hugs. I would never get to tell them just how much I truly loved them and how much they mean to me. I would never get to kiss my husband and tell him how sorry I am for all the s...